Finding a forever relationship is hard enough, but to have that emotional slate wiped clean then have to rebuild it from scratch with a man who now sees her as a threatening stranger is no easy task for NOPD detective Charlotte Caissie, but she doesn’t give up easily, not on the job and not in her suddenly crumbling personal life.
As the heroine of my over-arcing “By Moonlight” dark shapeshifter series, Cee Cee isn’t always easy to like – she’s tough, guarded, driven by the demons of her past. But her redeeming quality, the one sure thing in her life, was always the love she shared with former mob henchman Max Savoie. Now, with his memories stolen by their enemies, will they be able to find their way back to what they had together?
She spoke of trust like one who didn’t come by it easily, yet she’d allowed him access to her most intimate secrets, to her most private self. Max didn’t know much, but he understood how difficult that must have been, speaking volumes about what they’d shared, or so he wanted to believe. He needed to believe in something, something that would tether him in this cold, isolated spacewalk he was taking in the empty void of his past. Was that something Charlotte Caissie?
Again, caution whispered to him, an intense self-restraint that must have come from somewhere, from some harsh lesson learned.
Don’t let them see what you are, what you can do.
Survival . . . that one forceful need seemed to drive him, the key to all he’d been, to all he was, a deep, desperate, clawing purpose rooted in fears that shadowed his soul, forbidding this trust his supposed mate spoke of, denying the insistent claims that he was safe amongst friends. Why did none of those things quiet the insistence that all was not well, that he was teetering on a precipice of disaster that would carry all he’d loved with him?
If survival was the key, his memories held the treasure of knowledge locked beyond that wall of blankness. He had to get through or this woman, these people, this world he supposedly protected would all be lost, and that meant plunging into a vast unknown with only tentative threads of offered trust to hold him.
While working on RISE BY MOONIGHT, the end cap for the series, I’ve been rediscovering the powerful draw of this unlikely couple. Light vs darkness, a life time of suspicion vs implicit trust, love vs loss, all tightly woven through the fabric of these books. It’s going to be hard to say good-bye . . .
What characters have you read or written that you’ve hated to let go?
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Great job conveying his yearning and uncertainty. As for characters I've hated to let go . . . I don't think I've ever let any of them go. They're still inside me somewhere.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Ed! Maybe that's where I got all those extra pounds - carrying around all my characters!
DeleteYour writing is always a gut-punch of emotion, Nancy. Awesome job! I agree with Ed, that my characters are still with me, even if it's in the distant reaches of my mind. And they will always have a piece of my heart. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks, Julie! When asked to name a favorite character, I'm always hesitant. I wouldn't want any of them to get jealous!
DeleteI love the intensity and desperation of this snippet!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Jessica!!
DeleteLove your blogs. I'm always inspired to ditch all my own writing tasks, cleaning tasks too, and just go read. Another fantastic snippet.
ReplyDeleteDon't expect me to discourage you!! LOL!
DeleteHis dilemma is so powerfully written and wrenching! Whew...enjoyed the excerpt, felt like I'd been on an emotional journey with him...
ReplyDeleteImagine carrying him around for going on 15 books!
DeleteSounds like something from his past is trying to break through and make itself heard.
ReplyDeleteLoud and clear!
DeleteI feel the same way. Life is very complex!
ReplyDeleteThat's what makes it an adventure!
DeleteI'm addicted to that last paragraph. SO GOOD. :D
ReplyDeleteThanks, Amy! I hope those threads of trust high tensile!!
DeleteYou really know how to torture your characters, Nancy! At least he is at least considering taking hold of the life line that she is throwing him.
ReplyDeleteAnd he'd better double knot it!
DeleteThis writing... This... I feel like I need to study it, to try to grasp the technique of everything about it that is so right. It sucked me right in. His emotions, so blatantly on display. Lovely.
ReplyDeleteThe characters I can't let go? Kuylerh and Marissa, my first fictional kids, in the book Across The Night Sky--the one I promised my mom on her deathbed that I'd get published. What a journey it's been, and those two are always somewhere in my heart. :-)
Thanks, Teresa!!! A wonderful promise kept. She'd be so proud!! Mine was my biggest cheerleader.
DeleteTeresa nailed how I feel about your writing. Compelling isn't a strong enough word. You draw in the reader not just with the characters but how you write them and their thoughts. Major kudos. I didn't want to let go of Jessie & Marcus and Scott & Veronese, the twins from the Switched series. Will I go back and see what's become of them? I don't know. Never say never. Can't wait to read the final installment in the Max & CeCe story. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteThankyouthankyouthankyou!! Never say never, indeed.
DeleteLovely writing. A very emotional moment.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Elaine!
DeleteSo heart wrenching. You drew me right into the scene.
ReplyDeleteThnaks, Karen!
DeleteWhenever memory loss is mentioned, I can't help but think of people who have developed dementia. I worked with the aging population for years but got out and started working with kids after my own loved ones started developing dementia and it became personal. I know that's not the kind of memory loss Max has, but that's always what I think of.
ReplyDeleteI've ended up putting a lot of stories on the back burner while working on the Carnal Invasion series. There just aren't enough hours in the day, and sometimes I think I don't have enough working brain cells to rub together!
I have type 2 bipolar disorder, and sometimes hypomania makes me become super productive, but other times it just ends up making me irritable and unable to concentrate. If only I could have the productive kind all the time, I'd be the most prolific author ever.